Fear Cripples

What are you scared of?  Noah has been lately saying that he sees things crawling out of the heat vent on the floor.  I’m pretty sure that nothing is crawling out of there, but it is his mind that is saying, what if something crawled out of there?  And I agree, what if something creeped, crawled or slithered out of the heat vent.  That would be pretty scary.

Fear is that thing that creeps into the back of our mind and offers up the idea that something unsettling might, could or will happen.  Fear is felt at all ages and in someways it grows with you.  The older you are the more there is to fear.

As a child I never feared that we would have enough money for the necessities of life.  I never feared that our cars would break down.  I never feared that my home would catch on fire.  I never feared for anyone else’s safety.  As a college student I didn’t fear that I would hurt myself when playing sports.  I didn’t have any fear that the cafeteria meal was heathy enough.  As an adult we have a whole new level of fear.  In this economy there are many people who are deathly afraid of job loss, market shares dropping, and mortgage payments being made.  Fear is everywhere.

Fear is not uncommon.

The Old Testament shares a story about Isaac’s son Jacob.  Jacob had tricked his father into giving him his brother Esau’s blessing.  Jacob had previously purchased Esau’s birthright for a bowl of soup.  This made Esau very angry, to the point that he was ready to kill Jacob.  Check out more of this story in Genesis 25, 27-28.  With fear for his life, Jacob fled from his father’s country.

Many years later Jacob is living with his father-in-law, Laban.  The time comes for Jacob to leave Laban and he becomes fearful of seeing his brother again.  His fear of Esau is building.  Jacob sends some messengers to his brother to let him know of his intent to return.  The messengers return with this message, “We came to your brother Esau, and furthermore he is coming to meet you, and four hundred men are with him.”

I love that last part.  I can almost hear it.

Messengers: “Yeah Jacob, we saw Esau.  He said that he is coming to see you.”

Jacob: “Oh, cool.”

Messengers: “Um… Yeah, about that.  He is also bringing 400 men with him.”

Jacob: “Gulp…”

It is right there, in the four hundred men, part that Jacob’s fear grips him and grows within him.

I love what Jacob does.  Jacob prays.  Jacob speaks to God and says,

‘O God of my father Abraham and God of my father Isaac, O Lord, who said to me, Return to your country and to your relatives, and I will prosper you,’  … Deliever me I pray, from the hand of my brother, from the hand of Esau; for I fear him, that he will come and attack me and the mothers with the children.’

FOR YOU SAID, ‘I will surely propser and make your descendants as the sand of the sea, which is too great to be numbered.’

Do you see what he did there?  He remembered God’s promise in his life.  See, God had previously promised Jacob that he would be a great nation.  So far he was not a great nation.  I guess it means that Esau was not going to kill him.  If God said it, it was sure to happen.  Jacob clung on to that hope.

In the times of your most intense fear what do you do?  Do you cling to the hope that you have, or do you throw up your hands and grasp at the wind looking for answers or any ear that will listen to you whine?

Have you ever been in a situation where like Jacob you had to cling to the promises of God’s word?  

I have.  It has been a scary but safe ride.  Fear cripples, but faith clings!

~Peter

You do _____ and I’ll do ______

A Russian iconic depiction of Jacob

Does anyone else have a problem when someone is talking with you and they say, “Sure, I’ll do that but only after you do ____________.”

That drives me crazy.

I feel like saying, “well, are you going to do it or not?  Yes or no.  It is rather quite simple.  Just make up your mind.”  But, I don’t.

We see this all the time.  It seems to show up in every area of life.  This mentality pops up in our relationships with one another, in the work place, in our neighborhoods, and in every other corner of life.

It may look like this:

  • I’ll mow the lawn when you make dinner.
  • I’ll play baseball with you when you clean your room.
  • I’ll listen to you after you drop me off at the movies and let me spend the night at my friends house.
  • I’ll tolerate you if you keep your dog off my lawn.
  • I’ll be your friend only as long as the popular people approve of it.
What would you add to that list?
In Genesis 28, Jacob adds one more to the list.  This one drives me crazy.  It just irritates me.  Check out what he says,
Then Jacob made a vow, saying, “If God will be with me and will keep me on this journey that I take, and will give me food to eat and garments to wear, and I return to my father’s house in safety, then the Lord will be my God.”
That seems to be a tall order!  I want to be comfortable on my trip.  I want my clothes to be provided, and I don’t want to experience any problems in travel.  These three items are no small task.  Think about the time in which Jacob lived.  That would be no small thing.  I’m in no way challenging the power of God, but why does Jacob feel it necessary to?
It seems to me that there are times when we put stipulations on God.  We say, God only when you do this, that, or the other thing will I turn to you and acknowledge your plan for my life.  In my opinion this is a dangerous way to live life.  This is a dangerous way to set up your relationship with God, one based solely upon stipulations.
What do you think?
~Peter

No Training Wheels…

The other day I took Noah out and he shed the training wheels on his bike.  He was a bit nervous at first, but then he was totally excited.  What a day!  He said it was like recess without the training wheels, “because I could go wherever I wanted!”  It was a monumental moment in his life.

What monumental moment in life have you had recently?

~Peter

The Habit of Desire

This morning I read an interesting article over at Catalystspace.  The title was, “A Lifestyle Of Enough” by Eugene Cho.  In it he writes:

In our hope to honor a conviction of the Holy Spirit to give up a year’s salary, we had begun the two year process of saving, selling, and simplifying in 2007. Our goal was to come up with our then year’s wages of $68,000 - in order to launch One Day’s Wages. With only a few months left to come up with the total sum, we were a bit short and decided to sublet our home for couple months and asked some friends if we could stay with them on their couches or their guest room.

I still remember crying the night I told our kids of our plans. This wasn’t what I had signed up for; This was by far more difficult that I had imagined. Had I known, there is no way in Hades I would have agreed to this conviction.

This made me think about our habits of desiring more and more.  We live in a culture that screams the more you have the happier you’ll be.  Our culture bases success on how much you have, how many you manage, and how big of a salary you receive.  We are taught from a very young age that newer is better.  Just about every eight months a new edition of that ‘thing’ that you desperately longed for has come out.  Now it is mandatory that you have the newer version.  This is a marketing ploy, playing on the conditioned American response to long for more!

We easily form habits of desire.  The problem is that we are also a culture that does not celebrate in any form or fashion denying yourself anything.  It is no wonder that when our habits of desire meet up with our habits of satisfying our longings we end up in great financial ruin.  Our homes are feeling too small.  Our attics are buckling in the middle from all of the weight up there.  And our garages no longer house cars but extra stuff!

My wife and I watched a chick-flick the other night.  The romantic male character challenged the lead female to think about what she would grab if her home were on fire and she had 60 seconds to get out.

Pretty fair question if you ask me.

It makes me wonder if my desires and focus are in the right direction.  Believe me I like my toys and my luxuries like the rest of you.  I can’t wait for the iphone 5 to come out.  The problem lies right in front of us when our balance is off and we long for those things more than we long for Jesus.  Can we say along with Paul that we want to know Christ, and experience the mighty power that raised Him from the dead?  Do I want to suffer with Him, sharing in His death as Paul writes in Philippians 3:10?  Or am I more consumed with my expressions of wealth and comfort?

This is what the LORD says:  “Don’t let the wise boast in their wisdom, or the powerful boast in their power, or the rich boast in their riches.  But those who wish to boast should boast in this alone: that they truly know me and understand that I am the LORD who demonstrates unfailing love and who brings justice and righteousness to the earth, and that I delight in these things. I, the LORD, have spoken!

Jeremiah 9:23-24

It is time for our posture to change from that of comfort to that of a disciple’s.

So, what would you grab if your house was on fire and you had 60 seconds to do it?

~Peter

A response to Hurricane Irene

In preparation for Irene, last night we, along with the rest of the world, picked up some food items and started thinking about what we may need to do to prepare.  However, we are in a world of pain right now.  I didn’t realize till this morning that we are almost out of coffee creamer.  And we didn’t get any last night.  This could be a tragedy.

As the east coast hunkers down this morning to weather what may be the largest storm to hit the east coast I felt it only necessary to respond.

I give you : Hurricane Irene

And on the serious side,

Here are some cool sites to check out with info on Irene:

So, let’s share… What are some of your storm essentials?  What did you run out to the store to stock up on before you head inside for the next 36 hours?  

Trying to stay dry,

~Peter